Summer is almost over!

NOOOOO!!! Summer is almost over for me! I have 4 and a half weeks left. This really sucks! I'm excited because its high school; I'll be growing up and getting more privilages. I don't like it because I'll have to start from scratch; making new friends, laerning new things, and Lot and Lots of homework! I'm sure I'll get used to it, but I also want to work at the park too.

Yesterday my grandma died at 4:00 pm. I really miss her, but I have mixed feelings. We have to go to Montana for her funeral; part of me wants to go and part of me wants to stay back. Going would mean seeing the family again, but I want to stay back because I hate the feeling of saddness. It's so hard to control, and once I think of it, it's overwhelming and I can't think. I also do not like crying, especially in front of others. I know everyone else will be sad, but I always want to be strong about stuff. It gets really sad when I see my dad cry.....He doesn't do that unless it's serious.

I have mixed feelings.